I couldn’t

I wanted to scream

But I couldn’t

I wanted to seek help

But I couldn’t

I wanted to reach out

But I couldn’t

I wanted to laugh

But I couldn’t

I wanted to hang out with others

But I couldn’t

I wanted to be rude

But I couldn’t

I wanted to lash out

But I couldn’t

I wanted to complain

But I couldn’t

I wanted to run

But I couldn’t

I wanted to hate

But I couldn’t

I wanted to find out why

But I couldn’t

I wanted to change myself

But I couldn’t

I couldn’t get myself to be normal.